I'm an artist. I started dancing when I was five then traded in my ballet and jazz shoes for music books and singing lessons. I traded those for scripts, late nights rehearsals and line learning. I went to university for theatre, then in my late 20's, early 30's I started taking more classes at an acting studio in New York. I also wield a mean make-up brush and worked professionally as a make-up artist for some years. Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I'm pretty good at both the acting thing and the make-up thing. But...all of my talent is going to waste. I sit behind a desk 40 hours a week, answering calls and the only acting I do is pretending I work for the company I answer the phone for. I keep asking myself "Who am I? What am I doing with my life?" I feel like I lost myself somewhere down the line and I'm not sure how to find my way back to myself.
I'll be honest, I'm not sure if I really want to pursue my acting any more. I don't really have the drive and ambition. Not to mention career-wise I like the stability of a getting paycheck every month. I want a career and I want creativity. Is that too much to ask for? I feel like it is. I feel like I have turned down the wrong path somewhere. I'm not saying its London at all. London is probably the best decision I have ever made. It has forced me to take responsibility for myself and my actions. But right now I am struggling. I'm an artist. I thrive on being creative and being around creativity. My job doesn't allow me any of that. Its an office job, in the most boring office on the planet and it pays me peanuts so I can't go to the theatre or the cinema or exhibitions I would like to see. I need that outlet and its been taken from me.
I need your help my dear friends. Suggestions? Connections? Can you help a girl out?