Tuesday, July 19, 2011

One Year Came and Went

Sunday was my one year Londoniversary. I can't believe it, honestly the year flew by.  I remember sitting at the airport waiting to board my plane and waiting to start my life in another country.  It's been an interesting year, there have been a lot of ups and honestly, there have been a lot of downs too.  But that's what happens when you make a major change, right?!

I'm not going to go into details, but I have been going through a lot of personal issues recently and these issues have recently gotten the best of me.  I will tell you the parts that I want to divulge and I am going to leave out the really personal stuff for privacy reasons.  You may know that I've been getting really down about my job (you may have read all about it here) well, I will be truthful and tell you that I have literally had full on sobbing meltdowns due to this job. Not because I am have a bad experience or anything, but because I am so bored and broke and it has been making me miserably unhappy.  The attitude that I have taken on has really be affecting how I handle my daily life.  Well my friends, this past week, I recently hit rock bottom and was ready to hang out there.  I even went as far as calling my mom and telling her I want to come home.  I thought that packing up all my things and hightailing it back to Massachusetts would solve all my problems.  Then I woke up the next morning with a clearer head and realized that this was not what I really wanted nor was running away from it all going to solve anything.

So pretty much, I had, with the help of my friends and family, an epiphany (for lack of a better word) of sorts.  I've come to realize that I'm always running away.  When the going get rough what do I do, I run home to mummy.  Well, I will be 33 in a couple weeks and I am now going to start taking responsibility for my life...about time right?  Also, a friend said something to me the other day that really resonated with me, she said that when I hit bottom, I am down and I don't want to get back up.  I can't say she is wrong.  So something else I  have thought about is pulling myself out of this rut and the others that I'm sure will eventually come my way.  Positivity and happiness can do wonders.  If I keep positive about things then things wont seem so catastrophic.  I've also adopted a new mantra, but for right now I am going to keep that to myself :)  It really seems to be working too, which is amazing! 

As for work, the only thing I can do is keep positive about it. I am fortunate to have a job right now and while I at work I can use my time wisely and seek out opportunities while I'm here.  All is not lost!  I will get a new job and being stuck will not stick.  I hope you will stick with me on this new journey and I look forward to taking you all along.  As for journeying...I am on my way to Prague tonight for a few days and then back to London for a bit of a staycation with the lovely Laura!  I cannot wait to explore this new city and see what is has in store for me. 

Oh and as for the day of my Londoniversary, I coincidentally spent with my old roommate from New York, Caroline. We ate Thai food in a pub and chatted over a beer.  It was a lovely day!


  1. Oy, I've so been where you are -- (and some days here, I definitely am) but, the choice is ours how we want to look at it - either as an opportunity of or a stumbling block. I like opportunity better.

    Have you made a list of what you'd like your perfect job to look like? Have you emailed your friends and asked them to send you jobs they think you might like if they run across them? Have you looked up companies you might want to work for and seen if you know of anyone who works there? Or if they have networking events?

    I'm only saying this to you because I'm saying it to me (when I'm feeling dark and depressed). I tell myself to get off the couch, get my sh*t together and brainstorm brilliant ideas. :)

    I will send good thoughts your way!!!

  2. Heya, so sorry to come late to this - but happy anniversary! You took such an incredible plunge in coming here. Never forget how much courage you have!

  3. Thank you ladies! Much appreciated kind words :) The first year is always the hardest and now that I have gotten through it, I am ready for bigger and better :)